I Feel Inadequate

I Feel Inadequate

I had 2 miscarriages in 7 months last year.

We had been trying for 2 years before the first miscarriage. I’m grateful I even got pregnant at all and have just begun fertility treatments (IUI) as I do not ovulate on my own. I will be 39 years old this summer and we do not have children.

I feel inadequate being 38 years old without kids and I want to tell people so often that I have actually been pregnant and I’m NOT inadequate as a woman. But I never do. I always feel like I’m oversharing and most people just don’t get it.

Here’s hoping the upcoming IUIs are successful. I think I could emotionally handle a third MC and I’m realistic about it happening. I hate having to engage this process with a realistic outlook on my miscarriage chances.

I envy women who get to be joyful and optimistic about trying without that hanging over their heads.

— Kari

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