I found out I was pregnant at 4 weeks.
I actually started feeling different when I was 2 weeks pregnant. I felt my little girl burring herself even then. Had my normal 8 week appointment and everything was perfect. Had all my blood work come back great.
At 12 weeks I had the genetic testing done since it was highly recommended because I am 38. And my worst nightmare came at 13.5 weeks pregnant…
My daughter had Trisomy 18.
I has a CVS to confirm and was told that she would not make it past 2nd term. My boyfriend and I had just started to tell everyone we were expecting because we were in our second term. At 14 weeks pregnant, I was faced with having to terminate my pregnancy sure to her having severe genetic defects and not going to make it. I was grateful for the geneticist. He is one of the best in the world and trust him.
[blockquote author=”” pull=”normal”]June 9, 2015 my daughter went to heaven. No one can prepare you for the pain that you go through.[/blockquote]
It’s mental, physical, emotional, and hormonal. Some people try to understand and others step very far away. It feels somewhat like you are shunned from everything. The thing is, everyone moves forward and you are stuck in a horrible situation feeling empty and lost and can’t help but cry.
I felt like a part of me died when I lost my little girl. I got a cross tattoo as a symbol of her. 2 months later, my boyfriend broke up with me. So in the middle of grieving the loss of my baby, I add to it grieving the loss of our relationship.
—Heartbroken in Chicago
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