I have had complications getting pregnant, we finally went ahead and had IVF. It was the it was the longest 2 weeks ever.
We got the news that we were pregnant after trying for 10 years we were there.
One month later, I started to bleed and I thought that I was going to lose the baby, this went on for 6 weeks bleeding on and off. After those agonizing weeks, I was told I was having twins.
The months following were anxious and nerve racking. We want to see specialist after specialist even, they told us that 1 baby was growing smaller than the other and that they would monitor us closely, we were going about 2 times a week and one point, we were going 3 times a week.
Then I found out that I was having boys — wow is all that I can say — my dreams of being a mom are starting to sink in. I had my baby shower for my boys and I was so happy that everyone could attend this special time.
May 20 (2 weeks after my shower) I was told that the smaller baby was not doing well and we needed to deliver them. I was scared as I was only 6 1/2 months pregnant. I delivered two beautiful boys. 1 was 1lb and 9oz and the other was 2lb and 9oz. Both were put on a ventilator but the little one was really bad they transferred him to a different hospital two days after I gave birth.
He needed a special machine to help him breathe. His health declined for the next 7 days of his life. Since I had a c-section, I wasn’t allowed to leave the hospital to spend time with him. I saw him the last 4 days of his life.
The last day of his life something told us to get to the hospital as soon as possible. We got there around 8am — that’s when the nurse told us he is not doing well and he didn’t have much time to live. I thought my heart was going to rip in two.
My precious boy passed away on May 29th 2013. He was with us for nine days, every day I think of him. I am lost without him, I cry every day for him, I miss him so much, but I know that he sacrificed his life to save his brother, but it doesn’t get any easier. I know he is with God and the angels.