Our Precious Boy Sacrificed His Life to Save His Brother

I have had complications getting pregnant, we finally went ahead and had IVF. It was the it was the longest 2 weeks ever.

We got the news that we were pregnant after trying for 10 years we were there.

One month later, I started to bleed and I thought that I was going to lose the baby, this went on for 6 weeks bleeding on and off. After those agonizing weeks, I was told I was having twins.

The months following were anxious and nerve racking. We want to see specialist after specialist even, they told us that 1 baby was growing smaller than the other and that they would monitor us closely, we were going about 2 times a week and one point, we were going 3 times a week.

Then I found out that I was having boys — wow is all that I can say — my dreams of being a mom are starting to sink in. I had my baby shower for my boys and I was so happy that everyone could attend this special time.

May 20 (2 weeks after my shower) I was told that the smaller baby was not doing well and we needed to deliver them. I was scared as I was only 6 1/2 months pregnant. I delivered two beautiful boys. 1 was 1lb and 9oz and the other was 2lb and 9oz. Both were put on a ventilator but the little one was really bad they transferred him to a different hospital two days after I gave birth.

He needed a special machine to help him breathe. His health declined for the next 7 days of his life. Since I had a c-section, I wasn’t allowed to leave the hospital to spend time with him. I saw him the last 4 days of his life.

The last day of his life something told us to get to the hospital as soon as possible. We got there around 8am — that’s when the nurse told us he is not doing well and he didn’t have much time to live. I thought my heart was going to rip in two.

My precious boy passed away on May 29th 2013.  He was with us for nine days, every day I think of him. I am lost without him, I cry every day for him, I miss him so much, but I know that he sacrificed his life to save his brother, but it doesn’t get any easier. I know he is with God and the angels.

— Anonymous 

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  1. I see that this was posted a while back but I just came across this site. Let me tell you I am truly sorry for your loss :/ I was only six weeks when I miscarried even though no matter how far along the pregnancy was it still hurts us. But I truly feel sorry for the women who actually gave birth then had to lose their child. They were almost there..hang in there miss. God has a plan and I know you did not lose your baby boy in vain. **hugs**

  2. I also lost one of my twin boys in May 2013. I cry over the loss and pray that our surviving twin will not suffer as a result of missing his brother. I choose to believe that our oldest twin was protecting his brother and making sure that he made it safely to us. After that, his job was done and he went to heaven to wait for us all. Some days it helps but some days nothing helps. With their birthday approaching, I struggle with how to celebrate our youngest son without overshadowing his day with memorials for his brother. This is the hardest thing I have ever done. I pray for your strength as well as my own.

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