Just Under A Month Away

This time of year is always very difficult for me.  i can still remember it all like yesterday although it was 3 years ago.  I remember the excitement that after my second child was born full term and healthy – and after going through 4 more miscarriages I was pregnant again.

I passed my ‘worry time’ of 8 weeks and was happy and excited.

I relaxed.

& then it happened.

This time of year is the worst and i am dreading April 24th – the 3rd anniversary of  Triton’s “birth”.

My kids want to have a birthday party for him.  They are at the age where they talk about Triton (they are now 5, 4 & 2) because of his statue and tree we have in our room.  I love that they ask questions about him – i love that they show they care.

It’s still hard.

I miss him.

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Devan McGuinness

is the founder and executive director of the award-winning resource Unspoken Grief .

  1. My two girls and I pray together to baby Charlie whom i lost back in december. I like to imagine him playing with our cat willow whowas killed even before he was a twinkle in my eye and other family members who are there too. Im not over religous but it really helps to imagine him a healthy happy little boy playing away with the cat! Its nice in a way that the kids talk about him because it is with such innocence and there is no fear when they do. Its like he is part of there lives just not a physical part and part of mine too. I will light a candle for you on the 24th and ask Charlie to look out for your Triton. They might end up being the best of friends. x

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