I am the founder of Unspoken Grief.
I speak to so many families each week who have been touched by perinatal loss and grief.
I know just how important talking is — for our own health and to show others it’s okay.
I work hard to try to remove the stigma. To make it ‘easier’ for those needing support to find it.
For those needing to express their grief — to be heard — with compassion and care.
Yet, as I sit here typing, unsure if I want this to be published, I feel the stigma.
I feel silenced, over-concerned about what others will say — & what they won’t say but, will think to themselves.
I am currently losing another pregnancy. Another should-be child.
I am holding on to my grief — to the words I want to type. For fear of others.
I feel the stigma I am trying to break. I can feel the pressure of society wanting me to keep this in.
I am embarrassed to type this — though it is nothing to be embarrassed about.
I feel the urge to keep the details inside. To keep my feelings inside.
For other’s sake — not mine. & that’s not fair.
is the founder of the online resource Unspoken Grief , which is dedicated to breaking the silence of perinatal grief for those directly and indirectly affected by miscarriage, stillbirth and neonatal death. Using her own experience of surviving 12 miscarriages, Devan has been actively supporting and encouraging others who are wading through the challenges associated with perinatal and neonatal loss.
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I hear you and applaud you for speaking and not shrinking back. It’s better to talk than to keep silent even though it can be very hard to find an empathic ear but you have created the right kind of community for yourself. Don’t stop talking. ((huggs))
Thank you so much Desiree xxo
Oh God hon, I’m so sorry. Now my FB post seems a little tactless. You will be in my thoughts.
Thank you Beth & i am SO happy for your news — so happy!!
I just found you and unspoken grief after hearing of this site within my babyloss community. I have felt this post, these feelings. This world seems to treat grief so casually, as if it just too uncomfortable to address. I am doing my part to change that, and I am thankful that you are bringing your voice to this as well.
I am so so sorry for this loss. That you are again grieving. Our losses (no matter when the occur) are devastating. Take care of and be kind to yourself during this time.
Thank you so much Stephanie – I am sad that you have felt these feelings as well, but glad you’ve found this amazing community. It’s helped me more then I can say.
xxo
Devan, I’m so sorry you’re having to go through this again, and that you feel such a burden because of the stigma that accompanies pregnancy loss. You have done so much good in helping to lift that stigma, allowing so many women and men to share their stories, and their children’s stories. There’s always going to be those who don’t understand, and don’t try to. That said, the rest of us are here, with our ears open, sending the virtual hugs and strength we’ve all needed. Please keep talking and sharing. We’re listening.
Thank you so much Erin – i appreciate it so much.
I am so sorry. I am also sorry that you somehow feel guilty or bad for wanting to talk about it. I wish the stigma regarding pregnancy and loss wasn’t there. It sure would make it easier for all of us who have experienced it to cope. What a lovely world it would be if our grief wasn’t unspoken. Sending love and hugs.
Thanks so much for the love and hugs – means a lot to me.
So sorry, Devan. It sucks. Truly.
Thank you Miranda <3
Devan,
I am so so sorry for your loss. I know how much your heart is breaking right now and I wish I could ease it, but I know I can’t. Sending you many virtual hugs. xoxo
Thank you Amber – I appreciate the hugs!
I am so so sorry to read your post today. I wish that there was something that could be said or done to take this pain away from you. Know that you are not alone, and that you are supported, loved and least of all, that we understand.
(((hug)))
Means a lot to me Jen — thank you!
Devan McGuinness you are one of the strongest and bravest women I have ever “known”. While so many of us shrink back you charge forward. You shine the light into the darkest corners of your grief, showing us we are not alone. As you sound the rally cry for one of us, we sound the cry for you and we are all here.
Pam — thank you from the bottom of my heart. Your words mean so much to me and I really needed them today. Thank you xxo
Devan, I’m so, so, sorry for your loss and that you feel you can’t talk about it. Know that the fact that this site exists, that you DO want to bring a voice to others, is helping many who too have suffered the losses and feel the stigma.
Thinking of you. Much love.
You go, girl. I’ve had two miscarriages and one stillborn child of a surviving twin. I have four healthy children, but I miss my other three, especially the one I gave birth to and held.
I am truly sorry for your loss, and the stigma you are experiencing. I am currently going through the same loss, my third, and also feeling the stigma. I have also noticed that others seem to offer comfort to me by pointing out I must be grateful for my two living children. I am of course, however, it does not mean my loss is less. I then thank the person offering their version of comfort. Why? Why do we do that…because I feel shame or embarassed or not entitled to express my loss. People seem to want to do a quick nod to the loss, and shockingly some people very close, never even utter a word. This loss is denied, and ignored, and I lose faith that people are sensitive and caring.
I just discovered your site today, and feel very supported just in finding it. I am grateful to offer my support to you, and to share my loss as well.
Please take care, and express your loss however, and whenever you feel the emotions coming on.
JBee