I am feeling very conflicted; very confused.
Extreme numbness; mixed with a huge dose of guilt.
Barely 5 weeks in; I knew this would happen.
We were not ‘trying'; I was not ‘prepared’.
I’ve been here before; but not at the same time.
The physical pain.
I am sitting in a fog of PTSD; Yet very stoic.
I am tired; I am triggered.
I am embarrassed; I want to keep these feelings in.
I am terrified of ever trying again; Scared of this again.
This sucks; Nothing much more to say then that.