Devastated and Confused

Devastated and Confused

I was so excited to find out I was pregnant for the first time.

I was 37 years old and had waited until it was the right time. I was so excited to find out I was going to be a mom. I tried to keep it a secret, but it was hard.

My husband and I started getting the house ready, but were very careful just in case things did not work out. At 10 weeks, at my doctor appointment, found out that the baby stop growing at around 8 weeks. I was devastated and confused.

I could not get an appointment for a D&C for a week, so for that week, I carried my deceased baby. That was one of the hardest things ever.

We waited until we could start again and when we did, I got pregnant within 2 months. This was a surprised to us both.

But within the same week I found out I was pregnant, I found out that I would again have a miscarriage.

I know that I am healing and I’m determined to not give up. I wanted to not keeping this a secret, but to talk about it. I send my love and thoughts to every woman struggling with this issue.

We will overcome. Also, you are not alone.

— Jennifer

Photo credit: adapted from  swong95765 | Flickr

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