Break Your Silence.

Have had to listen to my newly pregnant co worker go on and on about food cravings, adversions etc etc. Wish I could just curl up into myself and fade away.

The due date is coming soon. Swollen ankles, sore hips and sleepless nights with the other pregnancies seem silly to have complained about now. My broken heart hurts more then any of that.

I found out I was miscarrying at the same time I found out I was pregnant. I didn't plan it, didn't even know if I could be happy about a baby. So why can't I be okay still? He thinks I should be doing better, I feel so alone

Joshua, due March 13th, 2011, died July 3rd 2010 Caroline, due August 2nd 2011, died December 10th 2010 Anastasia, due July 20th, 2012, died November 23rd 2011 I miss them so much, though I never got to meet them.

We were only 6 weeks along, but there was so much bonding and planning already done. I had no idea I could feel such a loss when were still only had an embryo. I'll keep the name and the onesie we bought.