Another Loss

We lost our seventh baby tonight.

We even made it to six weeks five days, longer than five of our previous losses.  We were so SURE that this one was going to work.  So positive, so hopeful.

I don’t even know if I’m supposed to be angry or sad or something else.  It wasn’t supposed to be this way.

Two of my friends (one of them my best friend) is pregnant right now.  We were supposed to have a combined prenatal visit next week.  I even found out I was pregnant on her birthday.

It wasn’t supposed to be this way.

This was supposed to be different.

But I guess you know what they say about best laid plans.

Now to figure out whether to keep going and risk this again or be done and never have another child.

It wasn’t supposed to be this way.

heartsandhandss

I have a beautiful four year old little girl, and six angels in Heaven. I am a midwifery apprentice, and a doula for those going through the hell of miscarriages or stillbirth

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