A question …

We are just a few days out from our 4th miscarriage.  And I’m finding it terribly hard to even get out of bed.  My living children need a mom, they need to grieve too, they need someone to keep their lives on track … But I can’t figure out how to do it.

What helped you put one foot in front of the other when all you wanted to do was curl up in a ball in the dark?   Like I said, this is our 4th loss (in 5 years) … a part of my brain is screaming “you should be able to focus … you should be able to deal!  You should remember how to do this!!!”   I know that I have been in this deep dark place before, but I can’t for the life of me remember how I climbed out … do I sound crazy, or what?  I know each mom, each family grieves and recovers differently, so I’m not looking for a magic, cure all answer … just looking for suggestions from moms who have been where I am today.  It hurts so much and I hate how this affects my mothering of the kids who are watching me.

Any suggestions welcome …


I'm a busy mom who loves the Lord and my family. I keep busy homeschooling our oldest and volunteering at our small private school where our middle two attend. I've also fallen in love with natural and attachment parenting over the years We have 5 living children: K(15), G(12), O(9), Z(5), & M(2). We also have 4 angel babies lost in pregnancies: Liberty John(2004), Elijah Lee(2007), Eden Sky(2010) & Journey Peace (2011). This life is a journey, complete with highs and lows, calm and chaos ...

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