4th Loss and at a Loss

I am 28 and have had 4 consecutive miscarriages in the last 2 years.

The first was in Oct 2010, it was a surprise pregnancy and not really a huge shock when I lost it 4 days after I found out. My partner and I were not that upset but still sad. I was 4weeks 5 days along.

My second loss was in May 2011. This time we thought it would work out and be ok. Another loss happened at 5 weeks 6 days. I was very upset over this loss and had a hard time moving past it but it got easier day by day.

My third loss happened in January 2012. At this point my ob had put me on progesterone and I started taking them the minute I found out I was pregnant right after Christmas 2011. The did an ultrasound at 8 weeks and found the embryo was in multiple clots and thought it was a molar pregnancy, it wasn’t. I had a d&c on Jan 21st. This loss devastated me and I was in bed for 2 days crying.

After this loss, they ran every test my ob could, at least I think she did. Our chromosomes are fine, my thyroid is fine, everything seems fine. I even had a hysteroscopy and it was fine.

My 4th loss happened on July 6th when I used the misolprostol to pass the baby. I found out a week and a half before this that the baby had no heartbeat but my ob wanted to checked my hcg just to make sure as my dates were lining up. A week later still no heartbeat and my heartache started all over again.

This time I am numb to the loss, I have had so many with no successful pregnancies. I am beginning to wonder if it will ever happen for us.

My partner tries hard to understand the loss and support me but it is a process that is over for him long before it is over for me.

My ob has ran out of options and I will see an RE to dig deeper into my problem.

I even wonder now if my ob checked for a clotting problem. I want to find a place to lay blame but there is no place for it. It is an unfortunate circumstance of life and it just does not get any easier with time.

sherri-lynn22

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